The last few months of 1996 were infinitely better than that of the previous year…but at the same time there were still some massive bumps in the road that desperately needed repaving. The signs had become obvious in November when I’d begged off hanging out with certain friends simply out of exhaustion. I was still getting used to the fifty-mile commute and literally doing a ton of heavy lifting of boxes for the store, and had told them I’d been too tired to go out on the town. That seemed innocuous on its own, but somehow it ended up being one of many issues they’d had with me at the time. Now, mind you, I admitted I wasn’t perfect and still had a lot of growing up to do, but I had no idea how they felt about me primarily because they never told me in the first place. What I had assumed was a relatively decent friendship had somehow deteriorated to the point that they’d rather I not be around.
And to be brutally honest in retrospect, maybe they had a point and I did have my bad moments that I’m not proud of at all, but the fact remained that they said nothing, no context at all, and left me wondering what the hell I might have done wrong. Sure, it’s totally up to them whether or not they wanted to give me an explanation, and I’ve done the same before and since, but at some sign long before it got that bad would have been appreciated.
Anyway, it all came to a head at the start of the year — on my birthday, no less — that two separate phone calls devolved into arguments and finally into a “we’re done here”. And we’ve never crossed paths since.
On my way to work the next day, the local classic rock station chose to play Supertramp’s “Goodbye Stranger”. I found it extremely fitting, really. What could have been a sad ending and a possible spiral now felt like freedom to me. I’d been forced to disconnect with a deeply unhappy past, and now I had no more obstacles.
It was time to move on.
Three months later, I started writing The Phoenix Effect, kickstarting a project that would define my writing and self-publishing career.
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Mixtape, Untitled VII, created November 1996. I’d started this mix a few months earlier while working at my mom’s bank and finished it up at the store. The mix contains several songs from the 1995-96 era from Radiohead, Stabbing Westward, Cake, Ben Folds Five, Seal, Spacehog, The Verve Pipe, a few track from the Beatles’ Anthology volumes, and even the US version of the Sailor Moon theme song. It’s a three-cassette mix and it actually contains a few songs from early 1997 to fill out the back end. It’s an extremely solid mix and it got a lot of play over the next couple of years.
The Presidents of the United States of America, The Presidents of the United States of America II, released 5 November 1996. Their second album didn’t nearly hit the same heights as their bonkers debut, but it was no less silly and fun. I named my car the Mach 5 after this song and not after Speed Racer!
BT, 今 ima, released 5 November 1996. I first heard of BT via the single “Blue Skies” which featured Tori Amos on vocals, which got a lot of play on WFNX at the time. I still wasn’t completely on board with techno yet, but I remember the store playing this one on the speakers quite a bit at the time and selling relatively well. I’d become a fan in another few years and have followed him since.
The Lightning Seeds, Dizzy Heights, released 11 November 1996. If I recall, this was only available on import at first, and my boss Tom was a big fan of Ian Broudie’s work so we carried it. I thought his cover of The Turtles’ “You Showed Me” was absolutely great.
Tricky, Pre-Millennium Tension, released 11 November 1996. I’d heard of Tricky due to his previous album Maxinquaye, but I didn’t really pay much attention until this album came into the back room. I was absolutely floored by how dark and unsettling yet intriguing and creative this album was, and became a huge fan thereafter. It even got a bit of play during my writing sessions!
Belle and Sebastian, If You’re Feeling Sinister, released 18 November 1996. This Glaswegian collective drops a second album a mere five months after their debut, and by this time the American college radio stations were paying attention and playing several tracks off both.
DJ Shadow, Endtroducing…, released 19 November 1996. I remember this being huge at the store as well, because it blew so many minds. It was unlike any electronic album you’d heard before, created out of a basement full of obscure records and seamlessly stitched together to sound original. It’s not quite trip-hop, not quite techno, not quite jazz, but everything in between. Highly recommended.
Bush, Razorblade Suitcase, released 19 November 1996. Their follow-up to the massively popular Sixteen Stone seemed to suffer not from the sophomore slump but because it’s a much darker and angrier record. It’s less grunge and more heavy rock and sounds nothing like their previous hits (well, the single “Swallowed” kinda comes close). It didn’t do so well at the store, but I always really enjoyed it.
Barenaked Ladies, Rock Spectacle, released 19 November 1996. This was their second minor breakthrough, especially with the live version of “Brian Wilson” which got a lot of play on alternative and AOR stations at the time. It’s a great record that proves that they’ve always been a fun and stellar live band.
Enigma, Le Roi Est Mort, Vive Le Roi!, released 20 November 1996. The new-agey electronic project’s third album did reasonably well with the single “Beyond the Invisible” and it of course got a lot of play during my writing sessions. The track “Why!…” caught my attention whenever it played out on the floor.
The Bloodhound Gang, One Fierce Beer Coaster, released 3 December 1996. The meathead rap-rock band’s second album could have been seen as their one-hit wonder with the goofy “Fire Water Burn”, deadpanning the titular Funkadelic lyrics and silly lines like “I’m not black like Barry White, no I am white like Frank Black is”, it got a lot of play on WFNX and WAAF and became a minor favorite. I remember some drunk guy coming up back looking for this album and I had to gently shoo him back out on the floor with CD in hand.
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…and so ended my first full year back in the hometown. Like I said, a bit of a bumpy road, but in all honesty it was a much-needed respite that allowed me to change for the better. Those disintegrating friendships did hurt, but it ended up clearing the way for me to follow my desires without distraction and perhaps also do a bit of overdue growing up. I chose to continue focusing on my writing, slowly figuring out where I wanted to go with it and moving forward the best way I could.
Coming Up: Yes, I’ve decided that I’m going to continue this series with 1997, mainly because the two years are interconnected in various ways. The start of my writing career, the start-over of my life, and so many great records that served as a soundtrack for it all. See you next week for it!
Walk In Silence 